Sunday, November 26, 2006

I'm back

Well it's over. We left at 4 am and came home around 11:30 pm. Ten hours on the road.

Abby's memorial service was really nice. I was a little worried because it was open casket but it ended up helping me. Aunt Riki was in the foyer and she just kept saying that she wanted the casket closed because it wasn't Abby. Uncle Stewart was in the little chapel with her. I got close enough to talk to him and see her there, and that's when it hit me. She's really gone. Nothing is going to bring her back. He asked if I had opened her card yet and I told him that it all seemed so unreal that I've waited, but now I felt like I should. He smiled and told me I'd like it. I did. Brad had opened his and told me that he'd keep it forever. He's also going to start sending cards more often. I'm with him on this now.

After reading it when I got home last night I cried some more. All I have to say is that I love you too Abby. I may not get to see you again as soon as we had hoped, but I know I will. It's just going to take a little longer than either of us had thought.

Friday, November 24, 2006

I'll be gone til November

Well, you know. We leave at 4 am tomorrow to drive to Arizona. The memorial is at 2, we'll eat dinner and then drive back. LONG LONG DAY. We had talked about staying over, but everyone and their mother will be coming back into town on Sunday, so we'll be driving back tomrrow night. It's a good thing I can sleep in a car with NO problem! I have my Nano all charged up and a book all ready to go. Yay!

Thursday, November 23, 2006

Turkey Day

Have a happy Thanksgiving everyone! I'm making green bean casserole and cranberry sauce for our little celebration. Hope it all goes well!

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Tuesday, November 21, 2006

It came today

It's here now. I don't think I can open it. I'm going to wait. I'll think of it as a time capsule.

Monday, November 20, 2006

Reflections upon my 25th birthday

Today I’m a quarter century old. Wow. It feels like it should feel more significant than it does right now. I mean, aside from Bo Derek being exactly twice my age today.

I think part of the reason it doesn’t feel like it’s so significant is because of Abby’s death. (For those that don’t follow me on MySpace, she was Matthew’s youngest cousin and was found in her bed Saturday morning by her father.) It seems so unreal that she’s gone. I mean, 18 year olds aren’t supposed to just go to bed and never get up. That’s what people in their 80s do. The funeral is Saturday. We’re driving in that morning and leaving that night to avoid all the holiday traffic. We’ll be donating money to the local ASPCA in her memory since she loved animals.

What’s so surreal is that she mailed me and Brad (one of the other cousins) our birthday cards just before she died. I don’t know about Brad, but mine hasn’t come yet. We’ll see what today’s mail brings. I think that’ll be really hard to read. I almost don’t want to open it when it comes. Like leaving it alone will keep her around somehow. I know whatever it is will make me really sad. I just keep thinking about all the things I’ve gotten to do since I was her age, or in my life overall, that she never did and now won’t ever be able to.

In her honor, I wanted to pass along some of life’s lessons.

Life isn’t fair.
Be nice to everyone, no matter how hard it is, you have no idea what their life is like.
Don’t hook your best friend up with an ex… it all ends in tears.
Adding drama isn’t worth it; life is exciting as it is.
You can never judge a book by its cover, or a person by their screen name.
Wear sunscreen.
The only issues from life to keep around are the ones that sit on your coffee table.
Marriages on the playground end a lot easier than the ones in real life.
Planet “Look-at-Me” tends to be very lonely.
Always going with the crowd tends to suck.
You can’t protect the ones you love from everything, especially not their selves.
When a guy tells you you’re too good for him, believe it and walk away.
A leopard really can’t change his spots; but he sure will try.
When older, wiser friends tell you to back down from a situation, they’re probably right.
Happiness really can grow from pain.
Don’t put people on pedestals, we’re all human and bound to make mistakes in our lives.
Pride goeth before the fall… of Napster.
Popularity costs you to do/ say things you don’t want to, and that guilt doesn’t go away.
Man-kini Speedos NEVER look good on ANYONE.
You don’t always marry your “type.”
To love yourself is the first step to true love.
If you tell yourself something long enough, you will believe it.
Cancer sucks.
Stay true to what you believe, you may not be popular, but at least you didn’t sell out.

Thursday, November 16, 2006

I know, I know

It's been like freaking FOREVER!! SO much going on... so little time to write.

I had another kidney attack starting last week, Thursday actually. It's gone on all this week now. I went to the doctor on Monday (I know, me? That NEVER happens!) She's given me a pass to call the urologist and radiology.

School has taken a lot out of me lately too. Finals are quickly approaching and the homework load is NOT going away. Not for another few weeks anyway. It's okay though. It'll be over soon and then I'll get a little break. Yippee!

My designing isn't moving along at all because I haven't had time to learn PSE yet. I managed to make some more LO's (see my slide show at the bottom of the page) but other than that I've just been poking along.

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

It's over!

She's done it! She's lost 180 pounds of loser material. Finally!!! Granted I'm not really a fan, but I do think she could have done WAY better and he was totally bringing out the southern PWT side out of her. Those poor boys though. Crazy parents and they're stuck with them for life!
I wonder what Dooce will have to say about it tomorrow. This shall prove to be interesting.